October 28, 2012

Blue

What am I supposed to do when he's all I ever wanted? I had given up on love until I met him and he showed me what it was really about. he's honestly the first and only person that has ever made me feel good about myself and who I am. he is the reason for my every smile and he is the greatest thing in my life. he makes me laugh like nobody else can and when he looks at me, my heart melts every time.
There's nobody in this world I'd rather be with than him and he's the only one who can cheer me up when I'm upset. he treats me like a princess and he respect me. we can be silly together but also passionate. He makes me feel alive. we love each other, but I'm afraid the look he has every time he looks at me is fading. after all this time maybe he's getting bored, sick of the same old routine and the same old me.
It's heartbreaking to see someone that used to love you more than anything, fall out  of love with you. but they don't say anything because they still love you and don't want to hurt you, they're just not in love with you anymore and there's nothing you can do to make them love you again. You've tried.
He's my everything and I won't be able to cope if I lose him. now I remember why i gave up on love, why I promised myself I'd never love someone again. because it hurts. although at the time it was perfect and everything I wanted, it hurts to lose everything and here I an again making same promise one more time.

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Taylor Swift - Begin Again :')


BEGIN AGAIN

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

You said you never met one girl who
Had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block, to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again