Occupied Mind.

Dear You

I have fallen for you since day 1. since the moment I saw you sitting there.

since the moment I saw your face and looked into your eyes. don't mind my cold stares at you, that was just me being nervous. up still now, i don't know what exactly made me fall so hard for you at the first sight.. it is your face, or your gesture, or whatever. I have no idea and you have no idea how dearly I love you, even until now. it feels like no one can ever love you as much as I do.

I know it's so wrong having you in my heart and mind for now, but truthfully it's very hard to get rid of you. I wonder why am I still not over you? Maybe I have just loved you too long? It's been 1 year and 4 months. it's been been that long since you've occupied my mind. is it just a silly crush or am I delusional, I don't know. I know I can't have you, I'm just not meant to be with you.

friends.. that's the maximum relationship we're gonna have. it's so sad to know that you're a very important to me, yet I'm not as important to you. yet, I still put you on top of my list, it's like even if I saved your life, you're still gonna see me.

What I'm sure of, is I love everything about you, your charming smile, that eyes of yours, your bad habits, your good traits and bad traits. I love them all. I love the whole of ya.

I got happy when you first talked to me, even when it was about a really stupid thing. I felt like I was in cloud 9 when you took the same bus with me. I felt butterflies in my stomach every time you sat beside me. I went home smiling from ear to ear every time I had close encounter with you, even if it was only for 5 seconds. you affected me so much even if you did small things.

My friend told me I'm crazy. they said that you're not a good guy, that even if we were together you'd hurt me. but the more I look at you, the more I ignore them. they asked how can I get hurt yet still love the person so much. sooner or later they'll get to experience that. but I hope they're not as stupid as me last time because I know how much it hurts to love someone quietly. 

People say that sometimes no matter how much you love someone, they just can't love you back in the same way. yes, it's very true indeed. it's very hard loving someone who doesn't love you back.

Now that I've got someone, I really hope I could lose this feeling, I feel so guilty yet I can't do anything about it. I'm a svcker for this kind of things. I hope you're happy, because that's what makes me happy too :) and I hope you'll always be my dear friend..

(Re-Post: Blackalogy)

Blue

What am I supposed to do when he's all I ever wanted? I had given up on love until I met him and he showed me what it was really about. he's honestly the first and only person that has ever made me feel good about myself and who I am. he is the reason for my every smile and he is the greatest thing in my life. he makes me laugh like nobody else can and when he looks at me, my heart melts every time.

There's nobody in this world I'd rather be with than him and he's the only one who can cheer me up when I'm upset. he treats me like a princess and he respect me. we can be silly together but also passionate. He makes me feel alive. we love each other, but I'm afraid the look he has every time he looks at me is fading. after all this time maybe he's getting bored, sick of the same old routine and the same old me.

It's heartbreaking to see someone that used to love you more than anything, fall out  of love with you. but they don't say anything because they still love you and don't want to hurt you, they're just not in love with you anymore and there's nothing you can do to make them love you again. You've tried.

He's my everything and I won't be able to cope if I lose him. now I remember why i gave up on love, why I promised myself I'd never love someone again. because it hurts. although at the time it was perfect and everything I wanted, it hurts to lose everything and here I an again making same promise one more time.

Taylor Swift - Begin Again :')

BEGIN AGAIN

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

You said you never met one girl who
Had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block, to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

1D♥

yap pertama-tama, gue mau bilang kalau gue itu adalah DIRECTIONER.
dan pasti kebanyakan diantara kalian udah tau apa itu Directioner.
yap, itu adalah sebutan untuk fans One Direction.
One Direction terdiri dari 5orang yang..........yah gabisa dijelasin.
mereka terlalu keren♥
mau cerita nih, waktu itu gue iseng nge-install "One Direction Application"
gak tau nya itu bisa dibuat chat *bego
namanya "One Direction Chat Room"
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! waktu gue pertama buka tu, ternyata ada si Harry Styles!
tapi dia nya udah buru-buru mau pergi yang entah gue gak tau kemana(?)
langsung aja deh, chat gue di bales sama anak-anak 1D!
YAP! ONE DIRECTION.
kalian gak bisa ngebayangin seberapa senengnya gueeeeeeeeeeeeee...........♥
langsung ajadeh gue kasih capture-an nya.
cekidot ;;-)

aaaaaaaaa NIALL HARRY LIAM & LOUIS MADE MY DAY!♥

The One That Got Away♥

IN ANOTHER LIFE, I WOULD MAKE YOU STAY♥

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